so that paid internship that i applied for, at S&G, they e-mailed me today to say that it had already been filled.
BUT
they're looking for unpaid interns, and asked if i would be interested in being one! i was already prepared for the fact that i would have to start out unpaid, as that seems to be the only way to get into this business in the first place. at least when you're young... they trial-run you at no cost to them, and then hire you if they like you.
at any rate, this isn't set in stone, but i am very happy that they responded at all! yay!
i'm going to cross my fingers and keep looking for a paying job.

...whoo!

i am pretty sure i could describe my entire life in a softer world comics.
i am not sure if that is weird and sad, or amazing and wonderful.
regardless, the inside of my head appreciates their sentiments very much.
to further nerd out, shall i point you to a "making of" video?

joey comeau has a diagram of the motherfucking Fibonacci spiral on his ARM.
LOVE.

i tried rock climbing for the first time yesterday, with Bill at this climbing gym near our apartment.
hooooly shit. i am so sore today. i am pretty sure i CREATED muscle where it did not previously exist in the course of that four hours! after the first climb, my arms hurt in places i was convinced were never supposed to get sore!
it's also very psychologically weird, since, once you get to the top you obviously have to repel back down. there's no where else to go. BUT IT IS SCARY AS SHIT. you are wearing a giant harness around your wait, attached to this big rope that can hold twenty thousand times your weight, but still. you have to physically just jump away from this rock hold five stories off the ground, and it is god damn frightening to that part of your brain that likes to stay alive. and apparently my brain REALLY LIKES TO STAY ALIVE.
jeez. yeah. i had a lot of fun. but, also a bit frustrating, because i have no arm strength.. at all. when only using my arms, i strain to pick up fifty pounds. bleeh. but i can tell with rock climbing that there is going to be a plateau between what i can climb by being smart with my body weight and balance, and where it's going to require me having some muscle. i was watching some cats LEAP at hand holds and pull themselves up with both arms! that's nuts!

ah well. i'll work on it.

my classes are officially over.
champagne and everything. (no confetti though.)
unless one of my professors decides to be a jerk and fail me....
i'm a motherfucking graduate.




weird.

a thought:
i should join the circus. i could make their costumes.
apparently there is a pretty large underground circus/burlesque scene in the bay area.

it would be pretty fun. especially to make amazing things like the picture above (which i did not make.)

yes.

i don't know if any of you have heard about this already, but, uh... GENIUS:


i promise, this is a real book.

"Pride and Prejudice and Zombies, an expanded edition of the beloved Jane Austen novel featuring all-new scenes of bone-crunching zombie mayhem. As our story opens, a mysterious plague has fallen upon the quiet English village of Meryton—and the dead are returning to life! Feisty heroine Elizabeth Bennet is determined to wipe out the zombie menace, but she's soon distracted by the arrival of the haughty and arrogant Mr. Darcy. What ensues is a delightful comedy of manners with plenty of civilized sparring between the two young lovers—and even more violent sparring on the blood-soaked battlefield as Elizabeth wages war against hordes of flesh-eating undead. Can she vanquish the spawn of Satan? And overcome the social prejudices of the class-conscious landed gentry? Complete with romance, heartbreak, swordfights, cannibalism, and thousands of rotting corpses, Pride and Prejudice and Zombies transforms a masterpiece of world literature into something you'd actually want to read."

this totally vaguely relates to my senior thesis, i promise.
also, all of that shit is due on the 17th for me! so maybe i'll have time to take and post some pictures then? i mean, it won't get much more done than how done it will be at that point, excepting being on a runway.
yeah. life is full. but good.

i started listening to This American Life lately. I've always heard that it's a really amazing radio show, but i don't really have a radio anymore. However, i do have an ipod, so i can listen to the podcasts they release. It's nice to listen to while i'm working for long hours, especially at night. that makes me sound lonely or something, but really, it's just that after 2 1/2 years of listening to music in an attempt to keep my energy up, it's a nice change of pace. just being interested in what they're saying is more effective.

anyways, so, apparently the Jose Cuervo company bought an island, and named it Cuervo Nation- a place to send contest winners and take press gigs and shit. that's kind of weird in itself, but the opening stanza of this story is so hilarious and amazing that i wanted to share it.


"He stood at the dock waiting for us as our ferry chugged over from Tortola. Shaven headed; goateed; he sort of looked like Anton LaVey, were it not for the speedos, mirror shades, and red super hero cape. A satanist at spring break.
Through a megaphone he alerted us that we were now entering a party zone. As we disembarked, he began scooting maniacally around us with a tequila shot balanced on his bald head, daring us to suck it down without using our hands.
This.. was Cuervo Man.
The other Cuervo representatives were there to teach us about tequila. Cuervo Man, I was told, was there to party with us. His job was to party. And just I began to grasp the frightening, yet thrilling, ramifications of this fact, Cuervo Man spotted me. He pointed to his shot crowned head, opened his arms wide, and chased me down the dock.
Cuervo Man's real name is Ryan McDunna. I learned this from the Cuervo Reps, who I think were a little annoyed that I was asking so few questions about their tequila, and so many questions about the man who seemed to be their trained tequila monkey. Actually, I was told, the term is Party Catalyst."

i just overheard one of my professors say,
"with platform boots becoming so popular again, what do hookers wear anymore? it's not fair to them."
this was after she earlier told us that since this could be good for our career, we shouldn't get high before the fashion show. haha, saying nothing about getting drunk, but we certainly shouldn't get high!

CLEARLY why it is fun to be a fashion major. we're smarmy, smarmy bitches.
i need to keep reminding myself why it was fun in the first place, so i don't lose all of my momentum after graduating and end up getting a job at a flowershop or something due to being so burnt out by the whole experience.

whine whine whine, i wanna have time to make art again. my own art. or even just clothes for myself, shiiit.

this is not a statement promoting monogamy. (psh. no way.)
it's just pretty cute.

also:

i had my wisdom teeth out on Friday
everything else in my body decided to take this chance to get infected and hurty (such as... both of my ears!)
luckily i'm on a lot of vicoden already
no biggie
just going to sleep alot
sleep sleep sleep

whoo!
i got a new phone at Christmas!
one that actually works!
ALL THE TIME!

yeah.. exciting.
i'll be back in the east bay tomorrow evening.
let's hang out?


love from me and the snow, to you.

it's snowing here in Washington! yay! it hasn't snowed at Christmas in like, five years? it always starts snowing right as i leave to go back to stupidly-sunny california. psh.

anyways, since we've already seen Kendra's lovely documentation of the snow, here is my input:


half-eaten snow covered apples! yeah! so fucking jolly!



bonus: me kicking snow off of my shoes, VERY INTENTLY. look at that concentration face.


oh yeah, so, HEY TACOMA. i am in you.

two headed boy
she is all you could need
she will feed you tomatoes and radio wires
and retire to sheets safe and clean
but don't hate her when she gets up to leave.

so, uh, i'm moving out of my apartment this weekend, but i don't have a new place to live yet.
i'm putting all my junk in my boss' warehouse space, which is nice of her, and i'll probably be sleeping on some couches for the next week or so... hopefully just a week or so.

uh, point is, i wouldn't mail anything to me.
i'm gonna get a p.o. box or something, but it'll really just be for all these damn medical bills that i need to actually pay soon.

BLAH.
LIFE.
THANKS.

other than that, my classes are pretty neat and bill is adorably adorable. life is okay, if you average it out.

today, all signs point to JFK.





so there is this crazy museum that's archived all the presidential candidate TV commericals in the last 50 years. i'm totally about to go look up some Jimmy Carter ones.

seriously, do all bums on the west coast REALLY feel the pressing need to ask me "why i look so sad/mad?"
come on. i'm just going to glare at you if i'm actually mad or sad. jeez. please stop it. this happens all the time.


stressin, stressin, stressin, listening to Ladytron.

i'm back from New York!
i'm too busy/lazy to post anything about it right now!
i'm about to be in Washington tomorrow in the afternoon!
my mohawk looks awesome lately!

..call me, jerks!

whoa, i got back from Oklahoma yesterday!
all i did all weekend was eat and sleep. and it was fucking hot. like really fucking hot. like.. yeah. my brain seriously melted every single time i was outside. and the fact that all cars and buildings have air conditioning? DID NOT HELP. because then i would somehow just forget exactly how mind numbingly hot it was, and be completely caught off guard. if i was a mouse in a maze and the maze was 100 fucking degrees, apparently i WOULD keep touching the electric fence and never fucking learn. good thing i am not a mouse.

the highlight of the trip was drinking really fancy scotch (Lagavulin!) with Wilson's mom and uncle!
not to say that the rest of the weekend wasn't fun, but- well, hanging around with relatives you mostly don't know in a town you've never been to is a little awkward. but they were nice.

also went to see the Oklahoma City Bombing memorial which was a nice piece of architecture. it was very pretty outside that day!


we look pretty good. dang.

( annnnd here's some pictures and junk. )

so, this friday i leave for New York for a week, and then a few days after that, i'll be heading up to washington.
August 12 - 19th! be there be there be there!

in other news, i quit my job because i was starting to hate it, right? my last day was thursday and i ALREADY have a new job lined up! as an assistant to a custom tailor! bitchin!
i really enjoy it when things fall into place for me. this whole last month has been really great on having awesome things fall into my lap, actually.
... i'm going to have to knock on a hundred trees in order to not jinx myself here, guys. shoot.

anyways, i start tomorrow and i hope it works out and that she doesn't hate me. that would be really cool.